Ive been reading the news online about blacksburg va, all the shootings they had today at va tech. It is very sad. I have been thinking about rup, adam and anna all day hoping that if they still have friends there that they are safe and sound and hoping they are doing ok too.

back to the grind

Its been quite some time since Ive read and posted here at CMAIs xanga page. I have completed a long time goal of mine (running a marathon) and took a few months off .. one to finish up the higher milage in my six months of training and the other to recover from a run from hell. I was hurt and still ended up finishing, but it took a real toll on my mind and body and I needed a month to heal and regroup.

So.. now.. Im back. Really truely and for sure back. I took my first classes this week. It felt great to be home again. thats what it felt like.. like i was home. I felt good and revived and excited all over again. Even tho im sore as hell.. its a good sore and its a born again feeling. Im ready to learn and grow and really kick some ass. My mind and body has taken a serious beating to get to where it is today.. but i feel alive.

For awhile when I was training before I left for the marathon.. I felt I was too old, I felt I was stuck in a rut and felt like I was standing still with my wushu training and ability. I felt as if I had lost all feeling and become numb to what my goals and aspirations were. Like a relationship that has lost all feeling and you just go thru the motions for the sake of keeping the other around.

running made me think about things.. running made me really figure out what i wanted and what i can accomplish no matter how old or young i am. running made me realise that im not a quitter, that im not someone that just gives up because something gets hard.. real hard and painful.. that i can keep going and learning and choosing and be inspired and motivated even in the worst moments. That just because i will be 37 in a few months doesnt mean that i should be put on a shelf. im stronger, more flexible, more aware, faster, better shape, mind and body, than i ever was in my 20s. It was a rude awakening when i realised that i was actually going to be 37.. sometimes i dont even believe myself. running made me feel 37, it made me humble.. and it made me respect and listen to my body.

now that im older, wiser, more patient and know my limitations.. hmmm.. maybe i should rephrase that.. its not limitations.. but my potential, expectations, inspirations, possibilities, perserverance. the list could go on.. because as we know.. when you decide that wushu is your home...its around for a lifetime. and thats a lot of time to be good at something.. hence the meaning of kung fu.

i look forward to training with everyone again for a long time.. :)

 thats right kids.. IM BACK!! thought id disappeared from the CMAI blog forever didnt you?? you should know by now that Im not likely to just be done with it. well in anycase.. ive decided to make a comeback. hehe.

lot of things going on. training for a marathon. training hard and practicing to get my next belt in a few weeks. workin my ass off. living in the city with my big zeus dawg. its been quite a ride this year.

its nice to know i still have my wushu family to lean on at times. in the last few months ive realised what great people I have met thru CMAI. I hate to say it but ive had a few things too many going on in my life that i havent been there for all of you. but know that im never gone. a phone call or a trip in or out of the city away.

so heres the deal..

ANNA!! youve texted me soooooooooooooooooo many times.. each time ive had plans.. and i was planning on trying to make your bday outting.. but just couldnt make.. soooooo happy b-lated.. and when we finally do go out.. drinks are on me chickie.. once i get my finances up a bit.. i know your a pretty damn good drinker. 

RUP.. im workin  up a running schedule for ya.. i havent forgotten.

EM.. well i talked to her just the other day.. but it was a while before that. she was my ride to one of the better martial arts movies yet. woohoo.

DANIMAL!!! we gotta hang out .. feels like your still in china dude.. i think i talked to you more when  you were there. haha.

NAT.. you always help me out with soo much when im at the school. stances, technical difficulties im having with  spear, form 6, two man sets, whatever.. someday maybe ill be able to teach you something.. and return the favor.. haha.

JER... thanks for helping me out preparing for the pretest and test in the mornings.. and practicing 2 man sets with me, and mabu, and pushups, and vups, and form 6, etc.

so many others around to thank and to hang with.. I guess having my car die on me for a week and not being able to come to class has made me thing about what if i couldnt go anymore.. Id miss a lot of peeps thats for sure.. and id miss the training.

ill see you all soon .. yayyyyy!!

help

its been awhile since ive written here. I went over everyone xanga too.. had some catching up to do. been sick for about a week and a half. i was knocked on my ass for quite some time. but im bakc in the swing of things thats for sure. well for the most part anyway.

the main reason i am writing today tho.. is to thank two people in particular that everytime I am practicing in the back they get suckered into helping me out with my spear basics and correcting very very bad habbits. thanks nick and nat.. you guys rock. someday i hope to return the favor. spear is really tough for me for some reason. but with some of the corrections and help ive gotten from those guys have totally helped me out in sooo many ways. Im starting to get the feel for spear a little better. i think anyway. its gettin there. slowly but surely.

in any case.. thanks guys. i owe ya one.

good class yesterday. got some great corrections and some detail on spear. its just a tough ass form tho. theres soo much to it and your timing is what makes or break your form looking right. all your body parts must be doing one thing or another all at the same time and then snap all at the same time. its tougher than most everything ive done. well i guess it should be since its what im learning now.. haha.

in anycase it was good to see everyone. and it was great to meet out new coach, Zhuang Hui. Shes got quite an impressive resume on her. Looking forward to learning. check her out. http://www.nmwushu.com/